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"Yeah, Bo-ie"
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10/5/2011
9:44:09 AM | I miss you so much, Daddy. You should see everyone. You would be proud of them because they do what makes them happy. I know your looking down on us and smiling. You and Grandma are our Guardian Angels but I wish you were here. Maybe things would be so much easier. I know you can see Aidan and would have loved to meet him. I wonder everyday what you think about how everything and everyone has turned out. You wouldn't believe it but Aunt Sarah is getting married and expecting I believe. I wish I could talk to you. I had this horrible realization the other night when I woke up and I couldn't help but cry. It kind of really hit me that your really gone and I just broke down. The pain is still just as strong as the day we found out. I know Grandma is with you and probably really happy to be reunited with you and her babies. I'm sure she misses all of us as much as we miss her. I wish she could have gotten to meet Aidan. But, I can imagine what she would have said 'Precious'. I miss her. Life seems so unfair and I'm sitting here by myself crying my eyes out. I always cry when I'm alone. It's easier on me and everyone around me. I don't think I will ever get over losing you or Grandma. It still upsets me to think about y'all. I try my hardest not to talk about you guys at all. I know it seems mean but it eases the pain a little. It is still really hard to talk about you and Grandma. Randa likes to tell stories about you guys all the time though. She misses you a lot. We all do. I don't think you know what your losses did to everybody. I'm a watcher. I tend to observe everyone's behaviors or reactions. Some of these reactions I wish I could forget but it's seems that my mind won't let me. It makes the losses even more devestating for me. I hate seen everyone in pain especially my siblings. I'm afraid that this is a wound that time can never fully heal. I miss and love you both. Keep an eye on everyone and make sure they stay safe. I hope I will see you guys again. |
6/19/2012
8:55:25 PM | Wish you were here. You would understand. You always did understand and were always a great listener. It's so tough being around family. Everyone thinks its because I don't get out enough or family is over stepping boundaries but that's not it. It's tough to be around them. Every little thing seems to remind me of you. I feel myself getting attached and don't like it. I feel the need to withdraw from everything. I don't want to get hurt or lose anyone else. Maybe we made a mistake coming here. I'm not ready. Wish I could talk to you. |
6/25/2012
9:44:09 AM | Your dad loved being surrounded by family, he wouldn't want you to withdraw in your time of need! He loved you all so very much! I know it's hard to be around family but it's part of the healing!! You are so very loved, please know this and you don't have to do this alone!!! Your babies need you to be happy and healing!! You want Aidan & baby bean need to know about their grandpa & great grandma that's the best way to keep their memory alive. We talk about him & Judy daily, just because life moved on doesn't mean you forgot/forget the ones you that helped mold you into the person you are today! Please reach out, I'm always here as others are too!!! Love you so very much and I'm so sorry your going through this!!! | | |
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