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Mindy's Blog
This is a place where Mindy can fill everyone in on how she and the little ones are doing, and hopefully exciting changes she wants to share :)
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"Love Lives On"
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I heard this song the other day by Mallory Hope (ironic that her name was one Dan and I always liked!)This song really hit me hard, for I have 2 little girls who will never know their daddy but I tell Malynda about him all the time and how much she is like him always trying to make someone smile or laugh. Maddy misses him daily, sleeps with his Centimark hoody, it's a blanket on her, lol! Love does live on, but it's never the same the second time around! If you get the chance to hear this song, you will know exactly what I'm talking about!
"Love Lives On"
I reached for you this morning
Woke up with empty arms
Once again it's sinking in
How far away you are
I still pour two cups of coffee
And tell you all about my dreams
This kitchen's way too quiet
You should still be here with me
And even though I cry like crazy
Even though it hurts so bad
I'm thankful for the time God gave me
Even though he couldn't make it last
I'm learning how to live without you
Even though I don't want to
And even with you gone love lives on
I still call your mom on sundays
It's good to hear her voice
She always tells me that same story
About her stubborn little boy
And I kept your favorite t-shirt
You know the one I used to hate
Ain't it funny how it's the one thing now
I just can't throw away
And even though I cry like crazy
Even though it hurts so bad
I'm thankful for the time God gave me
Even though he couldn't make it last
I'm learning how to live without you
Even though I don't want to
And even with you gone love lives on
She comes with me on your birthday
Little flowers in her hand
She's always known that somethings missing
But to young to understand
And someday she's going to ask me
What kind of man you were
I'll tell her all the ways I loved you
And all the you I see in her
And even though I cry like crazy
Even though it hurts so bad
I'm thankful for what god gave me
And she's the perfect way to make it last
I'm learning how to live without you
Baby I don't want you to
But even with you gone
Love lives on
Baby love lives on
Love lives on
Oh
Yeah
I reached for you this morning
Woke up with empty arms"
I miss Dan more with each passing day, I wonder if it will ever get easier without him here, part of me hopes so but then again part of me hopes not.
(Posted 10/2/2009 by dansmindy) |
LIfe in Watkinsville
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The kids are doing well! They are growing so fast, I can't seem to keep up with their growth spurts! Magnus is doing well in school, despite his diagnoses of Asperger's Syndrome in August. He is doing really well with his therapy (OT and behavior) and I learn new things each week to help him and you can see a change in him for the better. Max is doing awesome in school, he is exceling in Math (Dan would be so proud)! Maddy talks so much and looks like Dan, she is constantly trying to make someone laugh or make them "all better" when something is wrong. Malynda is 6mths old now and still on the small side, but her seizures are finally under control which is a great relief. She just started solid foods and loves them. She also looks like her daddy, so he got his way....all his girls look like him!! As I watch my 4 little one's grow up I can see Dan alive in them and although Magnus, Maddy and Malynda won't remember him he is still in them so much. The little things they do or say is just like him. Magnus lives to make people laugh and it drives me crazy but that is Dan coming out in him and I feel so blessed for that.
Despite what some may be feeling or thinking about me I love Dan even in death and I will always love him! Yes I have remarried, and life will continue for us all. Dan would not want me to curl up and give up in his absense. In the absense of Monica's dad he stepped up to the plate and treated her as his own and he would feel blessed that someone is willing to do that in his absense. There is not a day that his name isn't mentioned in my home, there are pictures of him all over the house and not to mention his ashes on the mantel that bring us peace in our darkest hours. I still cry for him daily and I don't know if that will ever stop. I loved him deeply, he was my best friend!
(Posted 10/21/2008 by dansmindy) |
Well the boys start school August 6,2008....Max will be in the 1st grade and Magnus is starting Kindergarten. I would be lying if I didn't say I'm sad to see our baby boy Magnus start school without Dan looking on with such pride in his eyes. Michael starts High school, which is so hard to believe it seems like yesterday when he was going off to first grade himself. Dan would be so proud of all his kids, they are all doing so well and are moving on with life just as he would want them to. Maybe we could all learn something from these 8 beautiful children....there is life after death and Dan wouldn't want anyone to stop living after his death, he was the most alive person I have ever known. He loved life to the fullest and would want us all to live each day as if it were our last.
(Posted 7/30/2008 by dansmindy) |
Together again!
Well this past weekend (5/24) was such a wonderful adventure! For the first time since January 2008 all the kids were together under one roof together. It was the first time Mike, Miranda and Mason met Malynda and they all got time with their baby sister. Then Maddy, Magnus and Max absorbed the rest of their time together like little sponges. I am so thankful that Holly and I are working together and I am able to see the kids. They will be back in late June to spend a month with us and I am so excited. Mike, Mason and Miranda have all hit a growth spurt and are getting so big, Miranda is beautiful and the boys are as handsome as ever. Dan would be so proud of all his kids and would be proud of Holly and I for doing what is best for these kids. He is watching over us all. I miss Dan so much every day but being able to spend time with all the kids helps the healing process a little at a time.
(Posted 5/29/2008 by dansmindy) |
Tough Times
Although I knew there would be tough times to come once Dan passed I had no idea just how tough time would get. I keep hearing from people "I'm so sorry for your loss, it will get easier with time", where on earth do they get that idea?? Is it because that's how they handle loosing someone they love? Is it because that's just how it's suppose to be. As time passes I'm finding it harder and harder to be without Dan and it stinks! I have so many little reminders of him around me 24/7 and somedays I find comfort in them and other days I want to do away with them. I would be lying if I said I'm not mad at him, because I am mad at him because this isn't how it was suppose to be. I'm not suppose to be a single mom to 4 beautiful children, I'm not suppose to be alone during some of the toughest years of my life and he was suppose to be with me until we were old and gray headed and I was suppose to push him around in a wheelchair all the while calling him vulgur names, lol! I miss my husband and best friend and some may think that I have forgotten him but he is never more then a heartbeat and a thought away. He is my first true love and the father of my 4 beautiful children, we shared moments that I will never share with another human being, I will always love Dan and I don't want anyone to think any different!!
(Posted 5/8/2008 by dansmindy) |
Feb. 22, 2008
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Good morning!
I haven't been real good at keeping people updated with what is going on here in Alabama and I apologize.
The house here in Alabama is officially on the market and please pray that we get some hits on it soon, nothing so far. I close on our new home in Watkinsville, Ga on March 6, 2008 and hope to make the move week of March 17th.
As for the kids they are all doing good. The older one's seem to be making the adjustment in Florida and Holly is taking great care of them.
The little one's are doing ok, we have had some behavior problems but I seem to finally be getting those under control. As for my pregnancy, we are taking that one day at a time. I'm currently 26.5wks along and at this point each day is a blessing that I'm still pregnant. The baby is doing great, she is very active and is growing great. I'm going to be leaning on family alot once I move.
On the upside 2 new nephews have been welcomed into the world since Dan's passing. Jon and Jessica had a baby boy "Jackson Daniel Hodgson". Stephanie and Joey had a baby boy "Joesph Theron Pitts", both little guys are breathtaking cute!! Both mom's pulled through the delivery's well and are doing good. I'm so thankful for this!!
(Posted 2/22/2008 by dansmindy) |
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